I guess I have one more than about Witching Hour I want to add, and it’s more how I personally feel is all. How I been feeling what I been thinking and what I want to do. And this will be a fairly long post.
Editor’s note: This is a rant or a vent or just both. Something to get off my chest. And I have to make this clear that no one is at fault here. Sure, I don’t like how some members act, and things could be better. But no one is at fault. I’m letting off steam.
How have I been feeling.
Guild has been interesting when I first joined or got asked to join and it was a fun time and was before Phantasy Star Online 2: New Genesis. And there were rough spots pre-NGS and post NGS but I didn’t mind it. Or rather, I ignored it. I met some chill people, you could goof off with, and being a member was fun. Then I got asked to become an officer for the guild way back then, even though, I was happy being a regular member and did not care to be an officer.
And being an officer, it was not so bad and ignoring other things. As an officer, I just help urgent quests and have to watch chat when users start to become stupid. As you can see, I don’t do much. Being an officer feels like babysitting but you get paid with disrespect, being ignored, or having to deal with stupid things.
And it always feels like you are walking on eggshells with some users. But as an officer, and forgive me. This shit blows! Witching hour feels too pc with some members. Someone getting offended, I can’t really speak my mind because other guilds or people may read this? It is why didn’t want to become an officer.
Maybe it is the lack of content, the guild feeling samey to me, just being here, some users won’t listen to advice or will be offended. Having to babysit some users or speak for users who want to do something but never speak up or even ignore some people, and don’t even have manners to respond sometimes.
Warning: This vent is all over the place but no hard feelings, just needed a place to unwind and release my problems or talk about them
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It’s time again for a fun post and an interesting topic from me,
OnyChaos. Why I am no longer competitive or why I stopped being
competitive. Well, let’s see in the old days of CyberScore or when
I joined the competitive side of Cyberscore or gaming, for me was
fun. It was about being better while having fun, you know?
Here the thing. Me
and my friends. Auto and Shiny. We are competitive in smash but we
have fun at the end of the day because having fun is better then
trying to out do someone in a vidya game. And I am fine with people
being competitive but most of the time the environment is toxic and
by proxy it keeps me from playing with other friends.
But being competitive seems to be such a serious thing that some forget what fun is or rather the only fun is beating the other players or fun being wasting hours, days on a game to beat the score by another user that has long since stopped playing.
Long time, no see. It has been a while again. I figured I would make this into a post. There are Tangents in this post. :P
So HyperSonic7701 has suggest that I play Duel Links on Stream so he and others could see how I play or do things in Duel Links. Sounds silly. Me of all people asked to stream duel Links
But the lad was serious, and I have to say that I had no plans on playing Duels Links, let alone playing it on stream. I should give “better” reasons.
With my friends being Yu-Gi-Oh fans, some more than others… People are into duel links or some. I don’t play Duel Links religiously or as my friends do. Just because I play a game doesn’t mean I love it. It’s a thing in this group I don’t like. It’s something that ran it’s course and it’s annoying… Got off-topic here. On to the reasons.
I am never fond of playing games I don’t like
I don’t like playing cards, and even less when I play them on stream. My relationship with Duel Links has been on the rocks and streaming it would either show me a new side to the game or ruin any hope of playing the game in the future.
Being shy when playing games out of my comfort zone
Playing games out of my comfort zone is weird or has been weird. Playing new games on stream is awkward for me. Having a call would normally work if I can bounce off of someone in a call or it will be a waste.
For me, Duel Links boring to me to play.
Right now, Duel Links is in the same boat as Pangya. Playing with friends is a mixed bag. It’s not as fun to play with friends, that is sure
So, I will humor this Idea..Maybe, but If I do this, it will be one off stream. Again, not a fan of cards games, even less so when I stream them.. I will do this with a friend who speaks in call or solo stream it and see what happens.
I really do not see any appeal to me streaming Duel Links is the reason I never streamed it in the first place. Will give this a go, I guess.
Random Tangent
I get told I will be the “Next king of games”, and seeing my friends climb the ranks to be KOG. It has showed me that I have no interest in rank nor do I care. If like wasting your time in rank. Have fun. I don’t care for rank. The more I get pushed to do something I don’t like, the more I will not do it.
Another Tangent
The only reason I have not uninstall Duel Links yet is cause I have some friends on there and we “play” Friend Duels but even those are starting to be less fun, and I’m not going to invest any more time into this game. It will get the bare minimum of time from me.
Enough with tangents. We will see what happens if I do the one off stream of Duel Links in the coming months or not. What a weird post this was. Part tangent and part post.
So, it has been a long time coming. A end to this rant saga of the speedrunning community. It has been a year, and I want to get this off of my chest. I know what I want to say, and I have a lot to say. This will be my viewpoint, and how I feel towards the community now, as well as other things. This is my experience with the sonic speedrunning community
I should warn you that this is a serious post. as I plan to end this saga, with a bang.
Warning: While reading this post, do take this post with a grain of salt, I will throw shade and I do have my reasons for that. With that being said, let’s start the post.
Editor note: This is me ranting about things, since I really don’t like to use friends as a outlet. If this rant offends you, I’m sorry but It’s a rant. They are never nice, and do take this with a grain of salt. – May 10th
Speedrunning
I guess this is it, huh. To think, I saw my self ranting about this community but things change. As you all know, I made a few rants and talked about how I feel towards speedrunning. Most, if not all was mostly negative, but for good reason.
Speedrunning, I feel that speedrunning used to be a special thing. Back then, before it became a normal daily event. it was a simple hobby meant to see how well could you play a game as fast or beat the game within a time frame. Hell, it was something everyone or friends could for fun. You could speedrun, make new friends, learn how a game works.
Back then in 2013. Speedrunning was a special thing. Something I felt was going to get better… Past me was wrong. While drama was normally not in the speedrun circle I was in, I didn’t really start to see how shit things were, because, I was new to speedrunning, and I just went along with what others did. Pretty much, not having a opinion, following orders.
Not all speedrun communities are like this.
But, it was whatever, the community was “friendly”, if you followed along and I noticed that I became a white knight but it was making my ride in the community somewhat ok. I shallowed my pride and went with it. By doing this, I was both fortunately and unfortunately to meet new people within the Sonic speedrunning community and, on Twitch..
It was not till 2015 – 2016 where I saw a new wave of Sonic “Speedrunners” who are super competitive in speedrunning. This is where I started to see these new toxic runners and this made me slowly resent speedrunning and this feeling of resentment would slowly grow over the next 2 years.. This is, of course, the point where I started to have my own opinions of Sonic runners and their actions.
And, at the same time, this was when I sent after by that person’s white knight lackeys because you know… “Opinions are bad” but anywho, I think around mid 2016, I started to not care about speedrunning but then, I saw “friends” speedrunning and, somehow that sparked a weak flame to speedrun run again. But really didn’t enjoy it as much as I used to.
It’s really sad, I had many plans to speedrun with friends and others. I would love to had the chance to speedrun with friends and others. I mean, I could do that but there really is no longer a point to do these speedruns together. I get speedrunners want to get a good time or get a better time. That’s fine
But when, it’s for fun, the mood just dies. Maybe I am too optimistic, I may as well try to catch lighting in a bottle, it’s not gonna happen, unless hell freezes over then, I can keep dreaming, I suppose… Of a day, where we could just race a game for fun. (Sonic 4 all emeralds, while that was not the race I had in mind. It is close to my idea, at the very least. There may be some hope)
White knights and opinions in speedrunning
We all know what white knights are? Right? Ok to make this quick and simple. A white knight is a user that will rush to someone being attacked, this means that said white knight will rush to the aid of someone being attacked, chances are, they did something to earn this but the white knight will defend all their actions to win their favor. That was anything but quick and simple…
Well, you get a idea. I will be mentioning the Sonic Speedrunning Community, as it does house a number of white knights.
So, as I have said before “the Sonic speedrunning community was “friendly”, if you followed along” this is true from what I seen. Two streamers I watch, I noticed a habit and the effect it has.
Test Subject 1. – He seems to follow along with his fellow Sonic speedrunners and does whiteknight them from harm. Funny thing is… I think he knows that some of the shit they do is fucked up. And if, that is the case, it makes this issue much worse than I thought.
When 1 follows along like a puppet or a pawn with no opinions of other runners, the effect is that, more Sonic speedrunners come to him and, it’s awful cause this just gives the Idea. “if you are my friend, then you can do as you please. if, it does not effect me, go ahead.” Normally, I don’t care but I feel this just gives the impression that shit is ok.
And I noticed that the other streamer is not a white knight. Having a opinion of other runners or the community, and not following along seems to be disliked among the Sonic Speedrun community, I know I am talking about the Sonic Speedrun community, but this is a be all, end all rant.
Speedrunning has lost it’s value to me. But, this is just a me thing. I have to say this because, I know people will read this and go “Speedrunning has not lost all value. You are wrong for saying this” Sometimes, people don’t like to read, so I will be sure to make my comment in Bold :V
*RANT INCOMING*
// I want to get this off of my chest
Before someone says “Don’t open old cuts” I want you to stop right there. This has been on my chest and GOD DAMN, I’m getting this off of my chest
I would like to mention one thing. So, when I had drama with a streamer who threw me under the bus. I went to said friend and made some jokes. But of course, when I made a “Fox season” joke. (Duck Season, Rabbit Season) Somehow, this joke was “inciting” a witch hunt…I swallowed my pride. But I feel that is total Bullshit. This was a simple joke. And the fact that you saw it as “inciting” A witch hunt, is BS.
“Fox Season” Mind you, this is a fucking thing. If you need, no, have to REACH to make a joke. Or what I said, sound like a attack on your friend, that’s pretty sad
I don’t even think it was the joke. Rather, you zero on me, because I made a post of your friend, and you assume I would Incite a Witch Hunt after your friend.
Look, there is protecting a friend, and then, there is being a white knight for someone. This is borderline white Knighting to me, so, it’s fine for them to fuck me over or throw me under the bus, send their lackeys after me, but because they are your friend, and you are in their circle, that makes it fine to do so? 2017. I took a lot of bullshit to the face. Dealt with a lot of Bull Shit and drama and getting fucked over.
There is a lot of shit I will take. Being called a asshole, I can speak my mind and my opinions may be hurtful, But don’t you GODDAMN tell me that I’m trying to incite a witch hunt, let alone assume anything negative about me. I draw the fucking line there when you start assuming negative about me.
That’s a fucking insult to me, and that is made worse to hear someone that you know for a few years, assume the worst of you, cause of a damn “joke” that had no ill will. But, whatever. I thank you. Because of mid to late 2017, I now know where I stand in this community or rather, I know where I stand with you and your “friends” So, this does help.
Look, let’s get your GODDAMN facts right. I don’t do “Witch Hunts” And do not Incite Witch Hunts. I tell my experience, so that someone else doesn’t have to suffer the same fate as me. Don’t you fucking confuse the two. Talking about a experience (Good or bad) vs. inciting a witch hunt. Are two fucking complete things.
So, before you white knight your friends from the “Big Bad Guy” again. Get your fucking facts straight before you assume shit about me.
No, i’m not ending any friendships over this shit. Because while this did hurt more than it should, Someone I looked up to, supported. It really does hurt to have them assume some about you after they known you for a while. It won’t end anything, but I will be keeping a distance from this person, but it makes sense, he knows them longer, by default, he will believe them and any facts or proof about them doing shady things. He turns a blind eye to it.
It’s funny. I wanted to believe that something was not true, but such a stupid Idea of mine. Something like that. Ha, it’s a silly for me to believe. It’s life, nothing will work out as you have planned. it’s whatever. You live and learn. Friends end up being a disappointment to you, one way or another.
I won’t mention who I am talking about. But I will say this, You have never made me mad. I never had a reason to be so mad at you.. I held you at such a high regard, knowing you wouldn’t disappoint me in the future… And I guess really, I’m not mad at him, just a bit disappointed, is all. That’s it, really. just disappointed, to be honest.
I said what I wanted to say that I didn’t say before. This is a rant.
*Rant done*
Speedrunning, friends, and livestreaming
I am a “speedrunner” I’m not good at it. And I don’t plan on it. and I know this will or may piss off some friends.
a. Livestreaming
Livestreaming is fun and having people to chat with is more fun. Streaming on twitch.tv and being “In” the speedrunning community before I disliked it. I made a lot of “friends” most of them are speedrunners, Nothing wrong with that. we are a small group of streamers / speedrunners. I notice habits that they have shown. Some I noticed tend to show support to speedrunners. I won’t say who.
Again, that’s fine. You like what you like. I won’t stop you. I am grateful that I have speedrunners as friends. And they do support me when I livestream speedruns… I know I can’t rely on speedrun friends because they want to do their own thing. They don’t want to watch a playthrough on Twitch.tv, they want to see speedruns
I guess, in a way. I really don’t ask friends for help. In a way. I envy these people who get support from their friends but at the same time… I don’t envy them at all. I’m weird.
I guess, in a way. I have a back up plan when I do quit speedruns. Look, I know people say that you can’t quit speedrunning, it doesn’t happen, It’s true to some point. But people say a lot of shit. Doesn’t make it true. People speedrun, because they want to.
Getting off topic… I will save this for later when I quit streaming in the future, but that won’t happen for a while. :P Or become a lone wolf in the future I guess. c:
Things I am not fond of in the Sonic Speedrun Community
I should say this, right now
Sonic Runners and/ or sonic members trying to silent opinions of others
People going behind others back to send their lackeys friends after them
Really do dislike people having this hive mindset
Really don’t like having to go along with the Sonic community to have them be friendly towards me.
I hate this mindset “If you are not friends with my friends, then we can’t be friends anymore”
Sonic runners who turning a blind eye or let some of this shit slide because that person is their friend :v
Sonic runners who are your friends but don’t have your back
But having friends who are speedrunners is good and bad.
You have a new point of view or a new outlook on things by knowing them. You can understand new things, rather that’s good or bad, is up to you.
By having friends as speedrunners, I saw a new outlook on life and things. I had laughs, good times
But on the other side of coin. I seen drama from friends that made me keep my distance
I seen how they can be, made me question, if I made a right choice or not.
But for this, the good outweigh the bad, just by a bit. :P
The end of a saga…
So, I guess, this is where I tell you how I really feel about speedrunning. I still resent speedrunning, is what, I would have said. As I wrote this I started to have different thoughts… It dawned on me. I didn’t resent speedrunning but rather, I have resentment towards the Sonic Speedrun Community.
It used to be my home, If I had no opinion and followed along, it would be a friendly place for me to stay but I choose to not follow along, I choose to have opinions of others, I choose to not be some sheep. But this was the main reason why “Sonikmage” or “Soniksama” is gone, This is the reason why all my ties have been cut with the Sonic Speedrun Community members.
I guess in someway, this was bound to happen. While, I am disappointed on how things turned out. I did learn a few things. I guess, to end on this note. I did have “good times” when I was apart of this community. Made some questionable fake acquaintances, made some good friends, lost some “friends” when I changed from “Sonik” to “OnyChaos”. I feel losing those friends, I’m better off without them.
My final note on speedrunning
Speedrunning of late has changed, for the worst, It used to be about going to see how fast you can go in a game and improving one’s time while having fun with friends, and even with strangers.
The environment was friendly and welcoming, you can or could have fun speedrunning, but now, the speedrun environment has become a toxic and unwelcoming environment, in my eyes. all the In-fighting or all this backstabbing in the community or ton of drama that spreads about useless shit, people getting offended over things and shit, friendships coming and going before they can fucking start.
Oh, I hear you now. “Well, you don’t need to be in a community” I don’t, but then, what would the point be than? Being a part of a community is suppose to feel like a home away from home. A place where you could escape life for a bit and talk with your friends and escape bullshit and drama. A area where you could relax from life, even if it is a short haven.
No one seems to try to have fun in the Sonic speedrun community, I can’t blame them, it’s a toxic environment that rewards those who are super competitive and only want to be number one. I used to be like them but i saw what was speedrunning doing to me. Speedrunning can be fun, if you speedrun with friends.
I will not deny that, the Sonic Community, and speedrunning Community has done a lot. They have done some good. I want to get this out the way cause I know someone will read this and get offended. :v
I guess the real take away from this is… Speedrunning is fun to do. It can be a blast. Just don’t put all your time into one community or it will blow up in your face. And don’t be shocked if some acquaintances cut ties with you in the future. I still like speedrunning. But the way I view speedrunning, is in a negative light.. Is that fair? No.
End of the Saga to Sonic speedrunning community ranting…
It’s now over… A community I was in, supported through thick and thin by whatever means, and cheered on, when it was the underdog. The Sonic Community, a place I did see as my home away from home, when I was “Apart” of it. Now, the Sonic speedrun community, a community, I now resent. How things have changed. Something I used to love and cared for, now I resent it with a passion…
Hey… If you somehow made it to the end of this long ass rant and did not get offended / mad or disappointed at this rant. Well done. You get a Sonic 4 Any% race. it’s May. Everything I have bottled up from 2016 – 2017 and up to now, was dumped into this massive rant.
As I write this. I feel like giving the Sonic Community one last chance. But I doubt my impressions towards them will be changed. hey, anything can happen, I suppose… Not gonna unblock them though :x
I am still grateful for the friends i have made and still have now. And while I don’t always agree with them on some matters or choices, I do respect them and still grateful of them sticking with me, during my rants.
if this rant somehow is the one to break the camel’s back to end the friendship with me, I guess it will show me where I stand with them, I suppose, it was meant to end. :v
Ony~
P.S You know who you are. I would not do it, if I were you. >_>
Hello again. It’s me, Sonik the edge-lord and I have a new post I want to share my thoughts on stream snipers and such. So, let’s hop in. And open a can of worms.
You might be wondering and/or asking, “What is a stream sniper?”, well, Jimmy boy. A stream sniper is a viewer with or without an account that watches a live stream to get the upper hand on someone.
Hello again. Your one and only Sonik here with a new post.
So let’s talk about twitch streams that focus mainly on fighting games on twitch.tv. And why I dislike them and no longer go to them.
So streamers that focus on online fighting games I dislike and here is why. When people stream those games they just become toxic or negative or the chat is toxic as hell.
Ony's chaos realm 