New year resolutions and goals for 2023

So with 2022 coming to an end and 2023 soon on the horizon. I should make goals, changes, and things I plan to do this time instead of me making these goals because of someone. I am making these goals for me and no one else in mind. These will be goals, plans, and things I want to do for my future.

And these are changes in my life and what I want to do moving forward. And some of these changes are needed, of course.

Table of contents

2022

2023

Things I plan to do before 2022 ends

Twitter

For this, it is time I do some cleaning up. And since I don’t roleplay anymore and for other reasons. I don’t see a reason to keep these accounts around. For those who don’t know, I made these Twitter accounts for roleplaying. Twitter back from 2011 to 2014. These were accounts for roleplay, venting, and whatnot.

These accounts are dead and still on the site as I wanted to leave them as a reminder of the great times I had, but given that Twitter could implode at any time, and these accounts were going to be something I look back laugh fondly with some people.

The accounts I am talking about are sonik and SorcererofKarth These roleplay accounts were something I enjoyed using back then, but I feel it is time to get rid of them and let them be free. One of the accounts my ex made help make in a skype call. And with my roleplay group defunct, there is no need to hold onto them anymore.

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Some small changes

Well, well, well. Time to talk about some things, but it is enlightenment for me and a step forward. I’m happy with this result. I think it is for the best. For me, health-wise, this blog post should be long blog post, or it might be short. I do not know.

2022 has been a crazy year, but I think because of this year, I realized something and realized something I should have since 2020 but better late than never, huh? It is better to learn the lesson later rather than never at all.

And after doing some thinking, I want to change the tone of this blog post to something happy and more uplifting. And let me begin. It is December and the final month of the year, and I guess the blog post I made here was something I needed.

Social media

Twitter and Instagram

So, this section was going to be about me listing off some things, like how using @onychaos gives me social anxiety and whatnot. I guess I can turn this around. I suppose I should start changing the way how I use social media.

I was worried and focused on old friends that I was blinded. Time to stop worrying about them.

And I think that is completely fine. No point worrying about other people. That is my wake-up message, and I’m glad I got it. And it is good to get the idea sooner than later.

I used to be bitter, holding on to the past when I should have let go of it and I think I am ready to let go of the past and everything linked to it. Look to a bright future with or without friends, and that’s ok, and I accept this now. it is a better choice.

Let’s talk

Alright. This blog post will be unlike the other blog posts and more over the place. Time to face my demons. This blog post won’t be seen by the person I want sadly. And something that weighs on my mind all to way back to 2021-2019, and I dare say even 2015. Doubt, thinking far into the future, and living in the past for comfort. And my mini breakdown on Twitter.

No one is at fault here.

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Let’s clear something up. This is here to give an understanding of how I think, maybe.

Doubts. I have doubts that they go well online. I try to push these thoughts back that things will be ok, but my thoughts only come back stronger. I know whatever I do, friendships, relationships, something comes to warn me that they will end.

It is either I doubt my friend will be there in the future or that I never deserve anything good. When good things happen, these thoughts follow. It’s a harmful cycle that I hope to break free of it.

But even then, I have doubts it won’t go well. Most of the doubts come true, and I begin to wonder if these are even doubts anymore but a look into my future with whatever I doubt. It’s funny since I had dreams that gave me a peak into my future.

Thinking too far into the future has been a flaw of mine. It’s either too far in the past or too far into the future. Never the present. I look to the future as it is more important than the present. It is a harmful mindset, but looking into the future.

I see the future as something better, but I stay too focused on it that it does me more harm than good. What would happen if this changed or that changed? What would life be like if I can’t help but focus on the future?

And living in the past. One who lives in the past has no future, or along those lines. What my friends and ex told me. Something I laughed off as silly, but then I started to live in the past as it gave me a sense of comfort when friends I held close started to change.

Then it was not until I started to live in the past more as life began to change for the better and worst. And I would say for both as I recall past events fondly and gain comfort and peace at the cost of creating a harmful bubble, so to speak.

Cleaning out old blog posts

So, this has been on my mind for a long while, and I thought about doing this before. I made so many blog posts. And most of them were rants, vents, or quick blog posts for a quick thing I did.

And as much as I “loved” Some of these blog posts, some of them came off or were super negative. And I should delete some of the blog posts from my blog. I want to do this because I have a clear head now, and having blog posts that have the vibes of being drama related or negative is something I wish to drop.

I am sure some people would love that stuff, but I want to let it go and wipe out these posts. Most of them are outdated, whiny, and petty. And what was said has been said. But I do not want to keep the past chained up to me anymore.

And some of the posts I plan to delete can be edited but the original vibe of the message would stay the same, and there is no point in keeping those kinds of blog posts around, in my opinion. I don’t mind when there is a little negativity because that is something you can avoid so much.

When that negativity is something I actively create, it is something I need to clear out as it will be easy to fall back to being negative, and I do not want that. And some blog posts need to be deleted anyway as they lead to nowhere or things I have blogged about have changed over the years into something completely new.

Right now, I am somewhat happy with my blog, and the few users that read my blog for drama and negativity have stopped doing so and have moved on, and I am doing the same or will try to anyway. Haha.

That’s all. And I wanted to info my readers of some changes I am making to this blog and the content.

And to be clear. The blog posts I will remove are as follows:

• vents posts
• rant posts
• drama like posts
• one time posts (post once and delete)
• depressing posts
• outdated posts
• and blog posts that are announcements

Ko-fi time is soon

I had this thought way back then, and it was should I make a patron as a way to get donations when I live stream or support for games I make to help make extra money on the side.

I have thought about this for three years and so. And I think this would be a great way to make some extra cash on the side for projects and future things so I can do stuff and help out other people. I want to be a game dev, but I also want to get a job, which might happen as things are turning around but more or less in the same situation for the time being.

One website I have thought about using is/was Patreon, but I have seen how funny and shady they have been if you wanted to do risque things. I have heard people had issues with the site here and there, and I feel it would be best to avoid them.

But one website I found and grew fond of is Ko-fi or as most people know it the “Buy me a coffee!” website. And this can become a bonus since if I can get Ko-fi up and running, I can by proxy become a Twitch Affiliate via the twitch Program. And this will open up more routes for me, and I think that will be awesome.

And I could make server roles for ko-fi users that donate or sign up which would be great but I will put these ko-fi links in games, on my blog, or on twitch and YouTube where it is not optional to pay but it would be there if you would like to support me. I don’t know when I will have this up and running but if I get it up and going you will see a ko-fi button.

So, this is something I’m hyped for but it will be a while. And it will be worth it, I want to think. When I can get ko-fi up and running, I will make another post. That’s all I want to share. :3

December blog update

So, what a year, huh? So much has happened, it all has gone downhill, and the year was all over the place. For better or worst, but it was for the worst. There was “some” good moments in 2020. Even though all the awful things that happened to the world and everyone. I can point out some good things that happened to me or that I have done.

1.)Blogging

Since 2020 I have been blogging way more than average. I have done so much more than I had planned. I was in a dark place. And I am still in a dark place, but I have “better” control of it. But off track, I had a lot of things happen to me since I started blogging more.

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August Blog Update PT 2

Hey, here is a part two to the August blog update. near the end I say what’s on my mind and how I been feeling. but there is more good then bad

gets dark again near the end. if you don’t like sad things, don’t read where it says the warning.

My uncle is getting well

After the attack on his life, he has been in the hospital and had to get surgery but from what my family has told us, he is getting well, he can’t speak at the moment but is alive. The people who tried to take our uncle life may be put behind bars.

Our uncle has done some things that got him to this point but that was the only way to have a roof on his head, although a dangerous lifestyle. his stuff has been placed somewhere safe. He will be coming up here to Texas since those who tried to take his life know he is still alive.

So, this will be odd. we can’t go back to Ohio once our uncle comes up here with us, since we will be a target But he is getting well. I’m praying for my uncle.

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July Blog Update PT 2

hiya. status report but will say what’s next for me. *shrug* those who want to umm, read can. up to you. things I am doing, plan to do or have done.

Should keep this blog up to date with my mental state. meh. And report back with monthly checks or just go dark.

Can’t say this post will be a bit happier. read at your own warning, I suppose

Let’s get to it, shall we, again?

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My Diet and weight lost

As said in my last post. I started to fast and eat one meal or two meals a day and after the meal, I would fast after the meal. It’s probably not the most healthy this to do (And don’t do this.) But I don’t know why I started doing this.

But cause of this. I lost more weight cause this fasting. and to me. It’s not harming me. so I, personally, can keep doing this

My current weight at the moment is 256.2 Ib and my goal is to be 200 Ib or around there or lower

Game Development

So, on Twitter, I gave up Game Development. and while I still may give on on it as it kinda lost a lot of joy.. I have a dumb promise to this fan game that I get it done or die trying, ha ha.

I have been working on the fan game and I will go from there if I want to be a future game dev. I don’t know yet. but who knows. I will keep going till I get this job.

July Blog Update

Well, this is going to be a uhh.. update and I guess I want to share what’s more on my mind and ha ha ^^

I should warn you, this update is all negative and don’t go into this update looking for sunshine and rainbows. That’s not here. This post is very dark and depressing

This blog update was edited heavily for viewing joy

Next Month will be a happy update

You have been warned. Read at your own risk

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June Blog Update Part 2

Hey, here is a part two of things that June blog post I made not too long ago which since then a lot more things happened I kinda want to talk about. This is a much happier part, I promise.

Losing Weight Again (again)

Been working on losing weight and eating right. :3 It has been a long and crazy ride. I also learned I don’t want to be ripped and have muscles since that feels a bit much.

I came a long way. I’m not at my goal weight but at the time of this post. I’m 264Ibs Still fat (I think?). lol but I came a long way, which was 330.3Ib+ I had enough and wanted to get fit, not just for others but myself. :D

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May blog Update

I forgot to make a update for April, we are skipping that month and doing May update instead because why not. And missed April update.

A list of things I done, plan to do or been thinking of doing. For those new here, I just like to blog about what I done in a month or two or show my progress

Working out – Part 2

Working out has been going well and from 2019 to now. I lost 70 pounds the few months and I feel proud of the weight lost I been on and it’s getting better :3 Diet is eating well, not too much, not eating late, fasting after dinner 5pm – 6pm, and working out for 30 mins

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March Blog Update

It’s a crazy year… Who would seen this coming? We all forced to stay home from the coronavirus like a game I know. Fallout Shelter. But have not played that for a year or two but enough of that.

During this time or downtime. I have free time to reflect on my life, my choices in friends, and outgrowing friends and I know who I want as a friend and getting rid of the toxic friends from my life. There is a lot here to unpack so I won’t make it too long but no promises here.

I must warn you, some of you may or may not like this update, and a big change in my life but it’s for the better.

My life

As I said, I had free time to reflect on my life and it was hard but It was done. Changes, new goals, Having a positive life without drama and petty grudges. There are things I want to do and want to have positive supportive friends in my life.

My goals and plans for 2020

OnyChaos here, and 2020 is here and it’s time for new goals, and life changes in my life.

And getting rid of the bad things and doing things with my life and make one big list of goals / things I done / plan to do

I will Update this list as I go or forget about it. Lol :P

So people may not like these goals but oh well. Lol :3

Moving out

Time to make a follow up update to a post I made on WordPress. But at this point it will be outdated but let’s get into this update since there are some things I want to address in the near future or coming soon.

There has been a lot going on in the background since we are getting ready to move and things will be completely different. I want to bring up 5 things I should talk about now rather then later.

1 Moving out with grandmother

We be moving to Texas to start a “New life” for us.  And during this time, I will have to get a job but it’s not a bad thing, I suppose. I do plan on giving this 2 or 3 years in the U.S.A And if I feel there is nothing left for me here. I will work on planning to live in Canada.

Living in canada is interesting, it’s not as simple as I thought but I can be done in due time. I need a job and be willing to leave the U.S.A. If I still want to live in Canada after 2 or 3 years, then that’s where I’ll be going. That’s in the future.

2 Making fan games

Making fan games is fun, You can bring your ideas to life and it helps build up your game dev skills which means you can make games faster but as great as that can be. I have learned so much from making fan games that I can make my own things

 But with how things are changing for me, fan games don’t make any money and they don’t pay the bills, and again, making fan games is fun but it doesn’t make any money and without money, I can’t make things.

So here is my plan. Get a better demo / final hiatus demo out with a download and go from there. I think from there I will make my own content and games and sell them while I work and if you want to support me in the future, be it on patreon or anything. Be pretty dope

3 Streams

Streams are in a bit a weird place. I have stated that Streams are on Hiatus but with things changing, long rpg streams or playthrough streams will be getting the axe because I will be getting a job. Those kind of streams will be a one and done.

 4 Keeping in touch

So, with me moving and such. Keeping in touch will still be the same till something changes that is life changing or a huge change. And I will be getting a phone in the future so, friends that are close to me will get my phone number and junk.

If you get my phone number, be warned that I may not see your texts. I’m bad at that but I will try. lol. Sorry. ;3;

That’s all for now Not much to list here but some things I want to list here ^^

big changes

Hello people. This is going to be a more serious blog post. With things changing in the household and things going forward I want to state some things that no one has asked of me but that’s ok.

So updates. These are pretty big changes in some sense if I say so.

Getting a job this year or next year or (looking for a job)

The search for a job is back on to make some money and to have a job in general but need to see how this turns out.

Now with this in mind. Things will be on hold or a long hiatus and I will list the things that fall under this list.

Game development and fan games – hiatus

Live streaming – hiatus

Playing games – hiatus

Making “reviews” and blogging – hiatus

Discord is on Hiatus

So those things will be on hold

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Things changing in the family household

Our mother is getting her own life, so that in mind I might not be able to crash here anymore and chances are, I won’t be able to stay for long. 1 or 2 years tops (This is still unknown). It’s amazing I was able to stay with my family for so long and helping out with cooking, cleaning and such.

I learned a lot about cooking and cleaning.

Will be moving with my grandmother to take care of her in a year or two (maybe), and move on from there once I get on my feet after that but we are moving after we meet up with my BFF and two years or so.

Unfortunately I have a learning disability and being a sheltered kid growing up has made some things harder. But however by staying with my family, I have to learn some things since I was not taught any of this in school, even though that is / was the point of school to learn things that you will use later in life!

 I will list below what I need to learn. And there is more of course.

Learn how to do taxes or learn where to get taxes done

Will need to get a bank account for saving money / using money 

I will also need to learn how to drive a car

I will need to learn how to apply for new jobs in the future

Learn to pay bills

Get a cellphone to call or such

Learn how to adult

I’m not sure how others learn this stuff.

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