New year resolutions and goals for 2023

So with 2022 coming to an end and 2023 soon on the horizon. I should make goals, changes, and things I plan to do this time instead of me making these goals because of someone. I am making these goals for me and no one else in mind. These will be goals, plans, and things I want to do for my future.

And these are changes in my life and what I want to do moving forward. And some of these changes are needed, of course.

Table of contents

2022

2023

Things I plan to do before 2022 ends

Twitter

For this, it is time I do some cleaning up. And since I don’t roleplay anymore and for other reasons. I don’t see a reason to keep these accounts around. For those who don’t know, I made these Twitter accounts for roleplaying. Twitter back from 2011 to 2014. These were accounts for roleplay, venting, and whatnot.

These accounts are dead and still on the site as I wanted to leave them as a reminder of the great times I had, but given that Twitter could implode at any time, and these accounts were going to be something I look back laugh fondly with some people.

The accounts I am talking about are sonik and SorcererofKarth These roleplay accounts were something I enjoyed using back then, but I feel it is time to get rid of them and let them be free. One of the accounts my ex made help make in a skype call. And with my roleplay group defunct, there is no need to hold onto them anymore.

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Let’s talk

Alright. This blog post will be unlike the other blog posts and more over the place. Time to face my demons. This blog post won’t be seen by the person I want sadly. And something that weighs on my mind all to way back to 2021-2019, and I dare say even 2015. Doubt, thinking far into the future, and living in the past for comfort. And my mini breakdown on Twitter.

No one is at fault here.

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Let’s clear something up. This is here to give an understanding of how I think, maybe.

Doubts. I have doubts that they go well online. I try to push these thoughts back that things will be ok, but my thoughts only come back stronger. I know whatever I do, friendships, relationships, something comes to warn me that they will end.

It is either I doubt my friend will be there in the future or that I never deserve anything good. When good things happen, these thoughts follow. It’s a harmful cycle that I hope to break free of it.

But even then, I have doubts it won’t go well. Most of the doubts come true, and I begin to wonder if these are even doubts anymore but a look into my future with whatever I doubt. It’s funny since I had dreams that gave me a peak into my future.

Thinking too far into the future has been a flaw of mine. It’s either too far in the past or too far into the future. Never the present. I look to the future as it is more important than the present. It is a harmful mindset, but looking into the future.

I see the future as something better, but I stay too focused on it that it does me more harm than good. What would happen if this changed or that changed? What would life be like if I can’t help but focus on the future?

And living in the past. One who lives in the past has no future, or along those lines. What my friends and ex told me. Something I laughed off as silly, but then I started to live in the past as it gave me a sense of comfort when friends I held close started to change.

Then it was not until I started to live in the past more as life began to change for the better and worst. And I would say for both as I recall past events fondly and gain comfort and peace at the cost of creating a harmful bubble, so to speak.

Ko-fi time is soon

I had this thought way back then, and it was should I make a patron as a way to get donations when I live stream or support for games I make to help make extra money on the side.

I have thought about this for three years and so. And I think this would be a great way to make some extra cash on the side for projects and future things so I can do stuff and help out other people. I want to be a game dev, but I also want to get a job, which might happen as things are turning around but more or less in the same situation for the time being.

One website I have thought about using is/was Patreon, but I have seen how funny and shady they have been if you wanted to do risque things. I have heard people had issues with the site here and there, and I feel it would be best to avoid them.

But one website I found and grew fond of is Ko-fi or as most people know it the “Buy me a coffee!” website. And this can become a bonus since if I can get Ko-fi up and running, I can by proxy become a Twitch Affiliate via the twitch Program. And this will open up more routes for me, and I think that will be awesome.

And I could make server roles for ko-fi users that donate or sign up which would be great but I will put these ko-fi links in games, on my blog, or on twitch and YouTube where it is not optional to pay but it would be there if you would like to support me. I don’t know when I will have this up and running but if I get it up and going you will see a ko-fi button.

So, this is something I’m hyped for but it will be a while. And it will be worth it, I want to think. When I can get ko-fi up and running, I will make another post. That’s all I want to share. :3

June update log

Time for a June update, as usual. I will list the things I did, done, or planned to do for June but they will have their section with details and such. I think having them as a list is boring.

Things I will be talking about soon or later.

WordPress, blog posts, and posts are ready to queue up. Discord, server updates, and changes. Fan game progress and showcasing. Twitch, and YouTube streaming. And other things.

Editor note: This post was made last month and most of the stuff here was changed or removed.

Things I got planned to do

Discord

Server changes

I will be getting rid of the Inactive member role cause too much work to manage members.

If I make extra changes to some things.

1. People can join and leave whenever they like. And welcome to rejoin if you were not causing issues. You can come back anytime.
2. If a said person leaves the server not due to being compromised.
3. Rare roles, Tatsu server points, and score, and anything else, may or will be lost and must be earned next time.
4. Access to private channels may be lost since discord removes you if you leave a discord server.

Oops updates

Ah, time to post again, and oh boy. A lot of what has happened and this will be a blog post and probably will be the last time that my friend has to proofread my posts to make sure they are safe to post so no one will be mad, and while that was nice having someone level headed clear my posts to be green to post.

Almost time to move out

With all the crazy stuff happening, our time in our old place is almost. We are moving out on May 31, 2022, because our landlord is a butt but the new place is a lot better and looks nicer than our current area

I have 9 boxes ready and got a few more to do and once my things are packed up, I can work and clean up in the other rooms and pack up stuff for the movers to get, and this move will be unlike Texas since the move will be a few hours and not a few days.

Movers show up on May 28, 2022, and we leave on the 31st of May but we want to be out before that date. Mini update: The movers are coming on May 27, 2022

The last trash day is coming up since the landlord wants nothing here or outside, it is going to be a rough week.

I made a blog post talking about moving again and whatnot. This is more of an update and extra news. https://onychaos.wordpress.com/2022/04/30/life-update/

Wake up call

Life update

So it seems we are moving again and not by choice. Our landlord is big baby mad that we won’t renew the lease for this place we are staying at this moment. I have a simple update to relay and whatnot.

Given that it is a new year and our lease on this place ends on May 31st. Our family was looking for a better place to stay in. So my mother does not want to renew the lease in case we found a new place and decide on something else once we find it and that has upset him so he is forcing home inspections and forcing us out. There is no option to renew here, he wants us gone.

The lease that he gave to renew has gone up in price and wanted more for staying in this house, and the place was already in bad shape and with him being the way he is as a landlord. That’s a yikes, but on a good note. We got a new place to stay in but this means we will have to start getting ready to pack up and repack stuff again sooner than later.

The point is, the landlord is petty, we are moving out around the end of May and see how things turn out for me and my family, and hope the next area is better. Sucks this again had to happen sooner instead of later but what can you do.

That’s all I wanted to write for this blog post and have something of a mini update on my blog.

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We are moving again

Alright. Starting the post-opening different here. The reason here is I’m moving out soon, and the lack of activity on a lot of things will come to a complete stop. We start the process of packing up our stuff and cleaning the townhouse. And after that, we leave on the 29^th of April or around there.

Once we are done cleaning and packing up our stuff, we are going to stay in a hotel and probably catch our flight in the morning, rather than flying at night and going to our place in the dark. But before we can move, there will be a lot of packing and cleaning up the house.

So, what is going to happen is on the 26^th of April, I will be busy cleaning, packing up our stuff, playing Phantasy Star Online 2, and being ready to move after everything is done. I will say that I will be less active everywhere else but PSO2. I will be doing as much as I can but I will be on discord as well.

Things I will try to do before the move. I might not get to do everything but I will try to do some of the things listed here.

1. Do a Livestream on twitch (Today)
2. Make one more blog post
3. Play more PSO2
4. Make some blog post drafts

This blog post is more of an update status on what’s going on soon or what is changing. So I wanted to update everyone and people on what’s new. And with that, I am done. I think once I get moved in, I will update my blog theme and everything else. I can’t wait to update all my content.

Here is how it will look or an idea of us moving out. From my understanding anyway.

Monday – start cleaning the house and packing up stuff

Tuesday – Family comes to help with cleaning, and they come to hang out and eat food.

Thursday – we call the movers to get our stuff sent out to the new house.

Everything else, not too sure. Lol.

Stay safe, and I will be back to blogging in may

October Blog Update

Hiya. Just another blog update that is happy and a lot to talk about and dump out all my feelings. These are good feeling though. And I should talk about old stuff and new stuff

Well. It’s October, and when I say there is a lot to talk about. There is a lot of stuff and finding myself and what not. So this “may” be a super long post that may take a few days but probably be done in 2 days.

Happy update, I promise.

September Blog Update

Hmm, A lot has happened in a few weeks. pc died, a old best friend found me, almost started a fire when cooking and going through the 5 stages of emotions. Hmm… and want to talk about somethings i been thinking about. Assuming people read.

Update on my Uncle

My uncle is well. The person that shot my uncle is locked up, my uncle is gonna be up here in Texas in a few days and this is our new “life” The friends of the attacker know that he is still alive, so think of it as a new life.

I wanted to talk about it. It is a crazy world.

Desktop computer is dead

My desktop finally bit the bullet. It has met it’s end. it held up very well and from me making dumb apps that may have been the cause of my pc meeting it’s end.

had a lot of stuff on there. roblox (That was never getting used again)
gamedev stuff (clickteam files)
Memories
game saves
livestream stuff
And a lot of abandoned things and apps that will not be used anytime soon.

It sucks but now, I have a laptop and it is pretty good. runs well and does everything I need and more, and I can take it on the go.

August Blog Update PT 2

Hey, here is a part two to the August blog update. near the end I say what’s on my mind and how I been feeling. but there is more good then bad

gets dark again near the end. if you don’t like sad things, don’t read where it says the warning.

My uncle is getting well

After the attack on his life, he has been in the hospital and had to get surgery but from what my family has told us, he is getting well, he can’t speak at the moment but is alive. The people who tried to take our uncle life may be put behind bars.

Our uncle has done some things that got him to this point but that was the only way to have a roof on his head, although a dangerous lifestyle. his stuff has been placed somewhere safe. He will be coming up here to Texas since those who tried to take his life know he is still alive.

So, this will be odd. we can’t go back to Ohio once our uncle comes up here with us, since we will be a target But he is getting well. I’m praying for my uncle.

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August Blog Update

Oh, hey, it’s August.. It’s almost a new month, huh. It’s time for happy updates and stuff. These updates are just things I done / plan to do. And just giving a short or long rundown of said event.

Happy things and sad things in the post.

Weight status

258 IBs but losing the pounds at a fast rate. eating less also helps me lose weight. been doing well in this part, I guess.

How I feel about streaming on Twitch

I gave streaming a second go on twitch after a two month + break. And it was talking to SBCz, HyperSonic7701, DeadKev19 but as fun as that was. streaming lost the magic to me. Streaming in general is no longer fun, for me. so my channel is kinda dead.

July Blog Update PT 2

hiya. status report but will say what’s next for me. *shrug* those who want to umm, read can. up to you. things I am doing, plan to do or have done.

Should keep this blog up to date with my mental state. meh. And report back with monthly checks or just go dark.

Can’t say this post will be a bit happier. read at your own warning, I suppose

Let’s get to it, shall we, again?

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My Diet and weight lost

As said in my last post. I started to fast and eat one meal or two meals a day and after the meal, I would fast after the meal. It’s probably not the most healthy this to do (And don’t do this.) But I don’t know why I started doing this.

But cause of this. I lost more weight cause this fasting. and to me. It’s not harming me. so I, personally, can keep doing this

My current weight at the moment is 256.2 Ib and my goal is to be 200 Ib or around there or lower

Game Development

So, on Twitter, I gave up Game Development. and while I still may give on on it as it kinda lost a lot of joy.. I have a dumb promise to this fan game that I get it done or die trying, ha ha.

I have been working on the fan game and I will go from there if I want to be a future game dev. I don’t know yet. but who knows. I will keep going till I get this job.

July Blog Update

Well, this is going to be a uhh.. update and I guess I want to share what’s more on my mind and ha ha ^^

I should warn you, this update is all negative and don’t go into this update looking for sunshine and rainbows. That’s not here. This post is very dark and depressing

This blog update was edited heavily for viewing joy

Next Month will be a happy update

You have been warned. Read at your own risk

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Happy 4th of july

At the time of this post. It’s still July 3rd. But happy 4th of July everyone. It’s going to be a very different 4th of July since most of us have to stay home or trying not to spread Coronavirus anymore (Though some people have not been making things better).

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While life, for me, and other aspects of my life, without going into much detail, I feel as things I once felt were certain.. I guess I will save my thoughts for another time, we can take the time to enjoy the fireworks..

May blog Update

I forgot to make a update for April, we are skipping that month and doing May update instead because why not. And missed April update.

A list of things I done, plan to do or been thinking of doing. For those new here, I just like to blog about what I done in a month or two or show my progress

Working out – Part 2

Working out has been going well and from 2019 to now. I lost 70 pounds the few months and I feel proud of the weight lost I been on and it’s getting better :3 Diet is eating well, not too much, not eating late, fasting after dinner 5pm – 6pm, and working out for 30 mins

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