big changes

Hello people. This is going to be a more serious blog post. With things changing in the household and things going forward I want to state some things that no one has asked of me but that’s ok.

So updates. These are pretty big changes in some sense if I say so.

Getting a job this year or next year or (looking for a job)

The search for a job is back on to make some money and to have a job in general but need to see how this turns out.

Now with this in mind. Things will be on hold or a long hiatus and I will list the things that fall under this list.

Game development and fan games – hiatus

Live streaming – hiatus

Playing games – hiatus

Making “reviews” and blogging – hiatus

Discord is on Hiatus

So those things will be on hold


Things changing in the family household

Our mother is getting her own life, so that in mind I might not be able to crash here anymore and chances are, I won’t be able to stay for long. 1 or 2 years tops (This is still unknown). It’s amazing I was able to stay with my family for so long and helping out with cooking, cleaning and such.

I learned a lot about cooking and cleaning.

Will be moving with my grandmother to take care of her in a year or two (maybe), and move on from there once I get on my feet after that but we are moving after we meet up with my BFF and two years or so.

Unfortunately I have a learning disability and being a sheltered kid growing up has made some things harder. But however by staying with my family, I have to learn some things since I was not taught any of this in school, even though that is / was the point of school to learn things that you will use later in life!

 I will list below what I need to learn. And there is more of course.

Learn how to do taxes or learn where to get taxes done

Will need to get a bank account for saving money / using money 

I will also need to learn how to drive a car

I will need to learn how to apply for new jobs in the future

Learn to pay bills

Get a cellphone to call or such

Learn how to adult

I’m not sure how others learn this stuff.


The happiest update

Sometime this year. I will be able to meet my BFF here in the USA since plans for Canada trip didn’t go as plan.. I’m still bummed out about not going to see the amazing sights of Canada with her but being able to meet my BFF here makes things better. Once things get sorted out where we can meet up. That will be awesome. 

Things needed for this to work to meet up

> A call to figure out details on what needs to be done and such.

> A hotel booked for x number of days

> Find out what hotel that we will be staying in and the area that it is in

> Buying a roundtrip ticket for Canada to USA and USA to Canada

>Find out where the hotels is

> Find out where the air ports are

>Find out where the other stuff is. Where to get food, shop for things

>Find out when me and my dear are free to meet up

But I am worried that I will make a bad impression. I worry I will mess up.

I love my dear. And I want to make this work between us but I don’t want to mess it up.

There is this worrying thought in the back of my mind that my dear won’t feel the same as me after meeting me and will want to stay best friends and if that comes to be the true I won’t throw away my friendship with her “if” it won’t workout

But damn, it will be a sad day for me and my heart if that comes to pass.. But I feel we might drift apart if it won’t workout and she may end up forgetting me when she starts having her life

Why am I overthinking this so much…? why is this eating at me so much? I’m scared of losing a best friend that I have so much in common with. I’m worried about someone special with a amazing bond with me fading away from my life and forgetting me in the future…

The meet up is going to be awesome but scary…Maybe I’m overthinking things…

She makes me happy and I love her dearly. I don’t want to lose her but I don’t want to keep her waiting too long and she finds someone else better… I’m a baka…

She is the light of my world that gives me reason to smile. She brings me joy that no one else can bring me. She is a driving force that kept going for so long after I wanted to stop.

These thoughts of losing her, and the light of my world, seeing it fade away.. It worries me so much but I must meet her and do something amazing.

I have never felt this way about anyone before and She is important to me. She is special to me. She is a one of a kind woman that can’t be replaced.

Maybe I’m a big baka for overthinking and pouring my feelings and thoughts into this post but it’s because I needed to say how I really feel and vent cause there is so much going on and didn’t want to bother anyone.

I’m just worried is all and I know overthinking doesn’t help in anyway


My Canada situation

I have brought up how I wanted to move to Canada to live down there but was turned down because my family is worried something would happen to me if I went there or they feel it’s a bad idea.

I wanted to live there to be closer to my angel but they don’t don’t want me to give up my U.S citizenship to live in Canada for one or two reasons and told me that I should see if she is willing to come to the U.S to live with me when we get more serious (in the future when I have my own apartment or condo to live in)

But my family feels that she may not want to leave her family and Canada citizenship behind. If that comes to be. I will take a chance and find a way to move to Canada…Or something

I have been a emotional mess.. I’m weird

This will be the last blog update for a long while

Interesting question about running SADX

Just a blog update. I been asked a interesting question. The question being do I want to speedrun any other character in SADX or put the same amount of time into a another character like I did for Sonic?

And to be honest, I was done with SADX. After Sonic’s story. I was done with the game in general and seeing the mini revival of SADX races / speedruns in my friend group is odd…

 So, I said I wanted to learn Knuckles or Amy… I really need to say how I feel on these matters, rather then saying yes in the moment. Not sure why it is so hard to say “No”. But anywho. I will give this some thought but I’m not going to promise anything but will think about it.

I speedran / raced knuckles centurion in SADX. Not fond of it. Hypersonic7701 did mention doing a half hour knuckles centurion and kinda iffy on the idea and again, no promises on doing this thing or not. And I speedran Amy as well before. 

It’s interesting to get a question out of the blue but at the same time, it’s kinda funny because I don’t know what provoked this question other then wanting me to speedrun other characters.

It’s silly because I started doing Sonic speedruns to say “I do or did speedrun this game” but then it became a somewhat “serious” speedrun that I placed in all my energy and then some into this game. But by doing that. My current view on SADX was ruined, although,  I never thought highly of the game to begin with.

The Sonic story speedrun was the final nail in the coffin for me and I have not touched SADX since I got my Sonic story PB. It’s funny that I’m being asked to play SADX again to run other characters but I really don’t want to play it anymore. The more I see of SADX, the less I want to run it. But before I end this blog post. I will end on this note.

But I will give this some thought but than likely I will turn down the offer after thinking about it. I did what I wanted to do in SADX in the times I played or speedran it. Sonic Adventure DX has nothing I want. My friends find something in it that I do not or they have a secondary motive.

On that same note, SA2B falls into same boat as SADX. Getting real sick of speedrunning Sonic games, I don’t bother voicing my issues as they fall on deaf ears. If you speedrun one Sonic game, you speedran them all in that sense. That’s what it feels like to me.

That’s all I wanted to say. Later people. This was a fun post to write.

Elsword: Never change classes on a whim

Ah, So you know you done something stupid in a game when you have regrets after the fact. What am I talking about? I changed my ain richter to an ain bluhen.

This is bad since my old Ain ( ain richter) was a a physical class and not magical. Now being Bluhen now, I’m a magical class and all of my damage and power that Ain richter had is GONE and that really sucks. I shot myself in the foot with this move. I can’t do much unless I either change my gear to magical types or buy a class change ticket.

Don’t get me wrong, Bluhen is pretty amazing at clearing dungeons. Better then Richter when it comes to clearing out dungeons. And the long range attacks are great and most of Bluhen Skills are not bad. Some of the attacks seem to do more damage more then Richter’s attacks. And that’s great but for me, it’s not going to do me any good being a Bluhen. If I had a magical  copy of my Physical gear, I think I would be in a better spot but that’s not the case for this.

But for now, I will just have to pay some K-coins and change back to a richter. My range will be poor but my damage will be much better then what it is now.

Change is nice. I learned about Bluhen but never do anything on a whim because you may or will regret it later. I sure as hell did regret it. Never doing anything like that again unless I am sure I won’t regret it later on.

But that’s all. See you later. :P

Beaten Neptunia Re;Birth 1

So, it was done. I have beaten Neptunia Re;Birth1. I got the normal ending but it was a crazy adventure that I thought I could never beat. Other then Shining Force which was years ago.  

Neptunia Re;Birth1 was a neat gift from Hyper and now it has been beaten. I got the normal ending and not the true ending. I said I will come back to this and get the true ending or try at least

We are on Cycle 2 or new game plus. But for now, where does that leave Neptunia Re;Birth1 for the channel? As far as it goes for the channel, the game was beaten on stream and a ending was reached.

I will come back to a much later date and try to get the true ending. But the future is unknown, there is a chance I might not bother with it outright. 

I had thoughts of playing  Neptunia Re;Birth 2 but I have no plans on doing so. If anything, I will play Neptunia Re;Birth 2 on my own time, If I play it.  Neptunia Re;Birth 1 was a one off for the channel.

The game is fun but a lot of time and grinding is needed and I don’t have that kind of time anymore to put into RPG when I have so much time into other things.

It was a blast however, and the memories were great, even if the game had it’s moments. But that’s all. Wanted to make this post.

If you want to watch the 31+ Hour Neptunia Re;Birth 1 let’s play, I will link it here to watch. https://www.twitch.tv/collections/0ZGC5BlhjxW7nA

I will see you guys in the next post. :3